I understand Xanax, but why Adderall and Provigil? Both of those are stimulants, and if anything they would only increase the anxious tension you are already feeling. Maybe you meant Ativan? Not sure about the modafinil though.

Are you dealing with EDS as a significant symptom in addition to anxiety? ADHD?

Why can't you see a doctor about your anxiety?

I'm abroad most of the time. Sure, I could go see a local doctor, but it would be much easier if I could just get the medication I need (and know to be working based on previous prescription) instead of wasting time and practically begging a doctor for those specific pills.

From experience, shrinks will prescribe whatever they want instead of what I ask for, since they know better and I'm a dumb foreigner who can't even explain things properly.

Why should he have to?

It was a question, not a suggestion or an argument.

However, if I was suffering anxiety, or any other disorder, to the point where I wanted to take medication, I would see a doctor. I would not trust myself to diagnose myself, let alone prescribe a course of treatment.

The question has some pretty strong assumptions, and OP should not have to justify why he doesn't wish to spend resources to be analyzed by a government agent to obtain medication he wants.

Depending on severity, OP may be stupid in this desire. But it is one's right to make stupid decisions for themselves, and produces better long-term outcomes than binding people to the stupid decisions of others.

Does your distrust of yourself mean you abstain from caffeine (for alertness) and alcohol (for social disinhibition), etc?